I've not had the best few days. It started on Wednesday, when Harry threw a major strop on me. It all began when he didn't want to have his socks put on. We've been having this issue for a few weeks now, he says that they hurt and keeps taking them off, then refuses to put his shoes on. I'm getting fed up with it anyway, and so when he started playing up again I probably handled it wrong and it all escalated, ending up with us not going out to visit friends after all.
We had screaming, tears, kicking, stamping, more screaming, both indoors and outside. I know that we are very lucky that this isn't a regular thing, but it threw me completely off balance because I'd never seem him like that before. Harry was a screamy baby and I could deal with that - in fact I became very good at dealing with a screamy baby. But as far as I can remember this was the first time since having children that I wanted to escape up to my parents. It was probably for the best that I had calmed down by the time I was able to talk to my Mum!
I also have a major life change coming up in a couple of weeks which I've found quite emotionally draining. I'll be fine when it's over, and it's definitely all for the best in the long run, it's just the getting to that point that is hard.
So in my lunch break today I escaped for a long walk and headed down to the seafront. I love visiting the sea at this time of year when it's deserted and peaceful. It gave me time to order my thoughts, and of course any type of exercise always makes you feel better. Changes are afoot, which I'll share when the time is right, and there are fun times ahead.
We also have an amazing holiday coming up in a few weeks time, and although it does involve things that I'm trying to forget about (a ten hour plane journey with two small children - one of which will not have a seat - and a time difference significant enough to mean that we don't sleep for a month) I am really looking forward to it.
Here's to fresh air, exercise, and collected thoughts!